Did you forget?

Did you forget how amazing you are? Have you forgotten all that you accomplished? Did you forget how many people care about you, look up to you, and admire all that you are?

Did you forget all the great things about you? Did you forget all your hopes and dreams? Did you forget all the power that you hold? Did you forget why you do the things you do? Did you forget how to feel? Did you forget to care? Did you forget who you are? Did you forget what you wanted? Did you forget what makes you happy? Did you forget what matters to you?

If you forgot, try to remember. If you don’t want to remember then think of new answers to these questions. Did you forget that you choose who you want to be?

CH CH CH CHANGES AND BEING SO LOST. THE QUARTER LIFE CRISIS.

As previously stated in almost all my blogs so far I feel completely lost. I’m 26 with a degree, graduate student, and yet to have a career in my field. Besides feeling lost career-wise, I feel lost in love, identity, and life in general. As part of Generation-Y I hear more about quarter life crisis nowadays than I do actual mid-life crisis. It’s really sad. Even though career amounts to a huge part of the quarter life crisis, I’m just not sure what the heck I want. I know I want to be happy, I know I want to have financial stability, and the freedom to just do me and not be criticized about my decisions.  I think I need to get over this last wish because people will criticize you regardless if you receive their  approval or not.

I find myself having the most honest thoughts I’ve ever had about life in the past weeks. For myself I would like to have a rewarding life. A life that means something and the things I do are for a purpose whether it’s helping the world, others, or just making myself happy. In helping the world I have starting thinking about progressing into a zero waste life. I have started making those changes in making my own toothpaste and investing in biodegradable tooth brushes. I am also analyzing the amount of trash I produce and what I utilize the most. I will slowly be progressing into buying a water filter and using a reusable stainless steel water bottle to reduce the plastic bottle waste I create. I am slowly using up my products so I can try to make homemade lotions and soaps. I have started buying glass containers and mason jars for storage instead of plastic. I still wear make up and use products with chemicals in them but I am slowly transitioning into wearing less make up and using the products I have. I can happily say that I do not wear make up approximately 4-5 days a week which I also think has been helping my skin and overall self esteem.

In regards to helping myself, I have been trying to listen to my body more. I find myself severely fatigued since October as well as significantly effected by weather changes and allergies. What I will be starting these next few weeks is trying to eat more raw and vegan foods. This week I will be incorporating more fruits, veggies, and healthy fats into my diet until I can actually start my 7 day cleanse involving a raw vegan diet. I will also try to restart a very mild yet consistent physical activity regimen and see if that will help with my fatigue. Mental health is also a priority right now. I have so many honest thoughts that I just want to figure out what I want and what will make me happy. I am making sure I am having adequate rest and writing more of my thoughts. I have also been sharing my ideas with genuine and caring  people who will give me their honest opinion in a non judgmental yet realistic manner.

As far as productivity goes I have been so unmotivated lately. I find myself procrastinating more than ever and a bit scatterbrained. What I am hoping to do in the next few weeks is have a productivity planner that will prioritize tasks for each day. I really need to get on top of things when it comes to assignments, finances, and time management. I know this will be a slow process but I am hopeful about the potential outcomes of getting organized.

Lastly, what I can do for others. Right now, I feel like I can’t help others if I can’t help myself. When I do things, I try my best especially if it’s for others. I think I need to start making progress on my own personal changes in order to really help others. The best thing I can do is become the best person I can be so I can create meaningful relationships with those I care about. It is exhausting to have mediocre friendships and just not giving in the best of my abilities. I do find myself having a limited number of close friends that I can give quality time to. At the moment I think it is 3 people. Everyone else I may see once a week or less frequently. For one of my friends I give that intellectual and emotional support. For another friend I provide physical and affection support. For my last friend I provide motivational support and reliability. I am also trying to create a closer bond to my sister by doing things that we can both enjoy and share our ideas.

I think so far I am going in the right direction. I am lost but I know where I want to go, it’s just the paths in between that I need to figure out. I need to figure out how I am going to get there and what I need to do to reach my destination. Overall, I would say I am in a good place and just have proceed with these ideas and tasks. We will see how it goes.