Accomplishments? Not really.

Hey now friends! It’s been a while. I wanted to get this post up to check in. Lately, I have been working a lot with having 2 jobs now. Any free time I have I find myself just wanting to sleep. I attribute it to my hypothyroidism but maybe it’s just lack of motivation and actual fatigue. With the nice weather coming up and I can feel myself not at the place I want to be physically. Every time I want to workout I feel extreme fatigue and just become catatonic. Perhaps this is also related to working 14 days straight with no days off. In reality I don’t feel the fatigue mentally, but physically I just want to rest.

I also notice that I have accomplished very little in the last few weeks. Though I am working more which is very productive, I haven’t accomplished much besides that. I think it has been about a month since my last post, I have yet to finish my CPR online course which I started like 2 months ago, I haven’t read a book this month, I haven’t finished knitting a scarf, and like I previously mentioned I have not committed to an exercise routine yet.

I’m hoping this lull will pass. I think I just need to make it through these next work weeks and make sure I am getting adequate rest, so when I do have the time to accomplish something I will complete it and not half ass it. I hope you are all having a wonderful week. As always thanks for reading.

Damned if you do and damned if you don’t. ( RANT)

Hey now friends! It’s been a while. Just wanted to check in. I started my new job this week. This is my second job so I have been pretty busy. I miss having weekly posts but I do try to check in when I can. Recently, I started taking medication for my hypothyroidism however, it does take a few weeks to notice any changes. Besides that I have nothing new to report. There has been something bothering me this week so I am just going to put it out there. The other day I was on the phone with my bestie and she was filling me in on a meeting I had missed for this year’s Play Del Fuego Festival. I wasn’t feeling well that day so I chose not to attend. With my hypothyroidism I now know that I am not just being lazy but instead I am actually fatigued and my body needs to rest.

Anyways, as she was filling me in she mentioned to me that I had been MIA for 2 weeks. I took great offense to this but didn’t say anything about it in the moment. The truth is, I have either  been home resting or at work for the last 2 weeks. There was one day last weekend that I did go out for a drink with an old classmate and happily invited my bestie to attend but she declined. I even went out with her the following evening with some friends. If anything, she had been the one doing other activities without me. After the last friendship fiasco I have been trying to give her her space and not taking it personally when I am not invited to things. However, I feel like she thinks I’m always busy with my boyfriend and I’m not. He’s not even in the state this weekend. How can I not be MIA when I am never informed of events. I always hear the same story. It was on Facebook. Facebook this Facebook that. Like fuck Facebook. I haven’t had one in years and I don’t intend to. There is something called a phone and I’ve had the same god damn number for 10 years now.

What is worse is if I address what is bothering me people will either insist that I’m overreacting or too sensitive. Yet, when I ignore the issue or let it slide I am the one who is checking out. I’m damned if I do and I’m damned if I don’t. There is no winning. End of rant.  Do any of you guys relate to this? What would you do in my situation. Do you have any advice? Let me know. From now on I will mark any posts as RANTS if they involve me venting so you guys know what you are getting yourselves into lol. As always thanks for reading.

I KNEW IT! WAKE UP CALL NUMBER 2

Hey now friends. Happy Friday! Today I received some bittersweet news. For the last 6 months I have been struggling with my health. I was sick for 3 weeks with what was diagnosed as an upper respiratory infection but later realized it was actually pneumonia. I also was struggling with my weight, fatigue, and some mild depression. I wasn’t sure what was causing these things but I assumed it was exhaustion from being sick for so long. Six months later I finally have some sort of diagnosis for these symptoms. I have hypothyroidism. I had suspected this for a while but even my doctor was skeptical. I had expressed to her how I had gained 30 lbs in the last 6 months and  felt very fatigued and moody. I do take a anti depressant for some anxiety but that wouldn’t cause my other symptoms. She ordered the TSH test but said that most of the time when patients suspect their weight gain is due to their thyroid, it is not. I felt like I was crazy. Like people thought I was making this up. Welp, today I found out I was right.

Though I am not happy about the news I’m just glad I know there is a cause for it. Now I just have to get back on track to getting healthy and losing the weight. I am so completely relieved. If any of you have hypothyroidism, had it, or knows someone with it please let me know. I’d love to hear any stories or advice you may have since I am new to this. As always thanks for reading.

Mini blog series. This is not Alaska.

Hey now friends! Happy April. On this lovely spring day it is 22 degrees out. No, this isn’t Alaska. I actually live in Jersey. The weather has been insane this year. You never know whether to wear army pants and flip flops or to put on a parka. It’s nuts. Anyways, I’m sorry I haven’t been keeping up with my top 5s posts these last 2 weeks. I have been preparing to start my new job soon which I’m really excited about. I have also decided to do a mini blog series in the next few weeks. I have to do some planning and preparations before I can start that new blog project but get excited. It involves food! Haha, of course it would. I’m such a foodie. Anyways, I will let you know more info when the time comes. Hope everyone has a fantastic week! Thanks for reading.