Halfway there! Resolutions 2016 UPDATE

Bon Jovi said it best. Hey now friends! I wanted to post this blog at the beginning of the month but being the master procrastinator that I am, it is finally up today. As you can probably guess by the blog title this post is an update on how I am doing with this year’s resolutions so far. You can check out my original post at Resolutions for 2016.

  1. Resolution #1 Lose weight– Sigh, this has been a total fail…so far. When I made this resolution I was not aware of my hypothyroidism. Now that it was confirmed and I have been taking medication, I can finally start making changes to begin the process of losing weight. I would call this one a work in progress.
  2. Resolution #2 Save Money– I would call this one a work in progress. Though I did save up some money, I ended up spending it on unexpected expenses and much needed maintenance on my car. I am well aware of my finances right now as my student loans begin next month. I am planning to save up and budget better by preparing my own meals instead of eating out so much and entertaining at home.
  3. Resolution #3 Read More– YES! Finally, I can say I have been going strong on this resolution. I have been reading more and I’m so glad I have been. I think reading has unlocked some creativity and definitely helps me to check out of the digital world.
  4. Learn a New Language– This resolution I would consider as a YES but also a NO. From January to March I was doing very well on my efforts to learn Korean. I was utilizing a daily app, looking up the alphabet, and watching k shows. Then, I pretty much checked out. Though I still watch k shows I can’t say I have the same drive I did the first few months. I am planning to restart my endeavors soon. We will see how it goes.
  5. Start a Career– Ring a Ding Ding! We have a completed resolution! This resolution entailed finding a position in the healthcare field related to my Exercise Science Degree. I was successful in completing this resolution and now hold a position at a prestigious hospital in my area in Physical and Occupation Therapy.
  6. Meet New People– Of course I have completed this resolution and intend to continue. I have met many new people through my new position as well as through friends I had made the previous year.
  7. Improve my Writing Skills– I think we can all agree that we are our own worst critic. As far as improving my writing skills, I don’t see much evidence of improvement. However,this could be better determined by an outside party. I will continue on writing of course and reflect back at the end of the year.
  8. Not to be of Excellence– Ouch, this one has NOT been completed. I can say however, that I have been more myself and expressing myself more without reservations. I think part of me is afraid to be great and now that I am aware of how little effort I have put into this goal, I will work on it more for the second half of the year.
  9. Take More pride in my Appearance– This resolution I would consider a success. Though I can’t say I’m Anne Hathaway in the Devil Wears Prada, perhaps Anne from Princess Diaries.  I still hide behind my glasses sometimes but honestly it’s because I feel like it is a part of me. Hair and Make up has been improved. Although I have been minimizing my makeup routine and switching over to more vegan and natural products, I have still been keeping up with my appearance. Clothes I am trying to wear things that are more flattering but not limiting myself.
  10. Show those I care about how much I truly appreciate them– This resolution has been a sweet success with a bitter aftertaste.  I have successfully made great efforts in creating closer bonds with my sister, boyfriend, and best friends. From planning a surprise bday party for my bestie, to taking my sister to her very first concert, and showing my boyfriend how much he really means to me everyday. This has all been going well. However, I have also been cutting people out of my life. They just do not provide any source of positivity. I am not referring to the friend that might be going through a rough patch and takes you down a dark road. No. I am referring to anyone who brings me down and makes me feel insignificant. I will not tolerate it.cebf0474b0aacde4470af1b9e4267d27

I’d love to hear how you are doing with your New Year’s Resolutions. As always thanks for reading.

The truth is…

The truth is I feel worthless sometimes. I am writing this post on my phone right now, with tears running down my face feeling defeated. A lot of the emotional issues I have including my anxiety are attributed to the relationship I have with my mother. I have seen counselors, psychiatrist, and even take medicine for all the mental and emotion scars I have. Though I am way better than I ever was, it is incredible how one little moment can break you down and take you back to such a dark place. To me, it’s the little things that make me happy. Whether it’s a silly kpop boy band , a new article of clothing, or writing a post on a blog that barely anyone reads, about something as silly as my resolutions or the Top 5 favorite things of the week. Those things make me happy. There is a bigger picture here. Bigger than you may have ever seen or considered. You may see someone who isn’t the best writer and may write about trivial things. That’s probably what I think most people see. However, there is more to that. Writing about things that make me happy is an outlet and could all possibly bring happiness to others. It’s about a person that may be struggling, and having a hard time and could use a distraction. Although the issues may not disappear at least they could feel happy about something. I read blogs all the time about similar situations/feelings and I always try to make them feel like they are not alone. That’s all I want. For people to know that they are not alone. That I’m not alone. Perhaps what I see in others is a reflection of what I see in myself or use to see or even want to see. Again, I’m probably getting a little bit side track but bottom line, do what make you happy and know your worth. You matter. If only I can tell myself that too when it counts. As always thank you so much for reading. You matter more to me than you will ever know.

Playa Del Fuego 2016

Hey now friends! Long time no see. It has been about a month since my last post. Even though I have not been posting for a while I have still been actively reading blogs, liking posts, and commenting. I just wanted to give a little update on some of the things going on at the moment. I have just returned from my Playa Del Fuego part 2 or Spring PDF 2016. Previously, I had written about my last playa experience in October 2015 and how I could not wait to return. Sadly, it did not live up to the original playa experience but nonetheless this trip still had its benefits. In terms of creativity and open-mindedness, I definitely gained some new perspective and motivation of sorts for new projects. I also feel that the bond between my bestie and I became stronger due to some of the challenges we faced. We became very aware of the trust we have between each other which is very meaningful and fulfilling. I also came to appreciate other strong bonds like that of family and significant others which have always been appreciated but just even more passionately.

Lastly, I have learned how precious natural and organic items are. When we think of natural or organic we often think of plants or food, which is true but what i’m talking about is a little more in depth than that. Anything in this world, anything that is not natural or organic was created by ideas. The most precious organic, natural items to us in this world is the human body and soul. What we are born with is organic. That is something to be treasured. Our body is our temple and vessel of our soul so why not treat it with respect. I have learned that. I want to love and appreciate my body and want to do what is best for it. Yes, there is also things such as self expression like dyeing your hair, tattoos, etc. Regardless of these being stressors on the body they are still organic ideas from the soul which help others see how you feel and who you are. Self expression is beautiful. Maybe I’m contradicting myself but it is something I believe. Okay, I am done with my hippie talk. I hope you all are having a fantastic week. As always thanks for reading. Until next time folks.